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Exams are over, the holiday has officially begun. With quite a shock. I had a great time yesterday and after over three hours of working up my courage, I told him.

I’m really proud of myself that I did, that I dared to ignore all of the voices in my head, and just went for it, regardless of the consequences. I was standing there, and told Thomas I was in love with him. But…

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Hello, my dearest readers.

Exams are relatively over, meaning I’ve had 4 in one week, and now have to wait yet another week for the last, simple one.

Which is good, because on the very same day, I will (hopefully) tell him. And I need to be prepared, because it will either start a period of bliss, or a period of being heartbroken and downright blue. And apparently no-one I know that knows him as well, is able to give even a little heads-up on his reaction. I’ve got no clue whatsoever about the fashion he will react, if he’ll react at all, and even less about what it will be.

But then I remember the motto I took from 30 Seconds to Mars, and what it means to me. Provehito in Altum, with various translations and meanings. And mine comes down to launch forth into the deep. Stop being scared off the consequences, and just go for it. I’ve done a couple of things according to it, and none of it has turned out disastrous (yet). And I also remember the writing on the wall in A Cinderella Story, which I’ve conveniently seen yesterday.

“Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game.”

So, that’s the plan. Any concrete tips, details or how-to’s are most welcome, because all I have are the basic outlines, and the very childish idea of telling very quickly and then running away like hell. With the risk that he didn’t understand what I said, or I end up under a car, or whatever. Meaning: all help is welcome .

To be continued…

XOXO, AnFie

I know it’s been a huge while since I posted, and I’m sorry to say I just forgot to…

It seems like the time between London and this moment has flown by, with both highs and lows. I can’t even remember half the stuff I did this past 4 months. So, no what I’ve been up to since the last post, just one simple update.

I fell in love.

Yeah, isn’t that great? I beg to differ. Being in love brings out the absolute worst in me. While my usual attitude can hardly be described as lacking confidence, it is what happens to me when I have a crush, love interest, whatever word you choose to use.

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