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I never believed in people who talked about love at first sight. I honestly didn’t believe that you could just run in to someone and know that they’re the one for you, just based on the way they look and maybe on a shared glance. I don’t know if I believe in the idea of a “one” for every person, and I don’t even know if I rationally believe in love.

I however do hope that love exists, and that there’s a one for me out there. About love at first sight I had to change my mind.

Because recently it occurred to me that what is meant by LAFS, might be more than just the very first seconds or minutes of meeting someone. Maybe the first time you meet someone, from the moment you trade first looks until the moment you part with them, counts as “First Sight”.

And I also believe I’m living the experience of love at first sight in that definition. It’s weird, and I’ve never had it before. Saturday I met this boy, whom I’d never seen before, and I felt this instant connection. We finally parted ways at 5 am Sunday-morning, and ever since, I’ve been feeling this need, more a craving and a yearning to be with him again.

I don’t know why that is, or if it’s a reasonable longing and I honestly don’t care. I want to see him, spend time with him, talk to him or even just be near him. The only problem seems to be that I only know his first name, don’t have a contact number nor an email-address. So right now, I’m hoping fate will do me a favour, and make our paths cross again.

I’m a cynic, and I try to be as rational as I can, about everything. So I need some reassurance that this man I’ve fallen for is a decent person, is someone I like and really has all the good qualities I already believe him to. I believe a lot of good things about him, the only trouble is, I also need to know, really know.

So right know, there are a lot of future scenarios for me, just like for other people. I’m going through an exciting period in my life right now, and I honestly can’t wait till the future is the present.

I know it’s been a while since I’ve posted something here. Things have been incredibly busy, and sometimes I wrote stuff, to conclude afterwards that those blogs were way to personal, both for me as for the other people included in them, to be posted for everyone to read on the worldwide web.

The song of the day is Future Foe Scenarios by Silver-sun Pickups. I’m a huge fan of that band, but this songs seems very right for the things that have happened in the past weeks. Read the rest of this entry »

Today’s just an ordinary Sunday, a Sunday as any other. In spite of what most think, for me, Sunday’s aren’t lazy. Sunday is the day when I try to do all the stuff I didn’t find time for in the week, which means: school-stuff. Today I’ve been keeping busy with this assignment we have for one of my classes, Heuristics of the Early Modern Age.

For those of you who don’t feel at home in History, the Early Modern Age starts with the discovery of the New World, the invention of the printing press and many more thing around 1500 AD, and ends with the French Revolution and other events surrounding the end of the eighteenth century. Heuristics, on the other hand, are lessons about the different sources of a certain period, where to find them, how to use them, and what’s been written about them.

For this particular task, we have to analyze resolutions of something called “het hoofdcollege”, which is a level of government in between cities and provinces. What it means is that we have to read 92 pages in a barely readable handwriting, combined with Dutch which is actually more like French. It sucks.

Seriously, it’s very boring, you don’t see any progress in what you’re doing, the interface they made is of a very low level and not very user-friendly. What bothers me most of all, is the fact that I can’t see how this particular task is of any use for the course it’s in. We’re mainly doing the dirty jobs of some archivist.

However, there are a couple of things that make this more or less bearable. One is the music in the background. Especially for this occasion, I created a play-list called ‘Working Music’. It’s a fun mix of rather alternative music, nice and loud music, music that makes me happy (and I admit, nothing gives a bigger happy-boost than the early works of the Spice Girls, Steps or Aqua) and, last but not least, the beautiful music which gives me an out of the actual work and allows me to think about the lyrics and something much more satisfying.

Another thing is talking to my friends on-line. This assignment is also a group-assignment, and the group I’m in is purely coincidental. Maxime (one of my friends) and I where looking for a group the day they explained the task to us. After ruling out some people we already knew, we turned around to 4 lovely people sitting behind us and asked them if it was okay if us 6 together formed a team. We exchanged email-adresses, and I honestly have to say, they’re very fine people! With some of them the conversation engaged about other things then just the assignment, and I honestly believe that a friendship is in between reach.

After this lovely intermezzo, it’s time to get back to work. There are still 70 pages to go, so wish me luck =).

Hello to all of you!

My Name is An-Sofie, I’m a 19 year old girl, living in Belgium. Right now I’m studying history at Ghent University, and altough they might say second year is easier, I’ve never had less work for school. They keep on giving us tasks, papers and literature lists to write, and then of course read the books on those lists, lots and lots of stuff.

But there’s also the fun stuff of life, so here’s a list of my favourite things.

1. Travelling. There is nothing I enjoy as much as getting to know different cultures, countries and cities. My favourite destinations, of the countries where I’ve already been, are New York, Iceland and Paris. The places I still want to go to, is more or less the rest of the world.
2. History. Really, and I know I sound terribly boring when I say it, there’s nothing I like more then finding out how things were in the past, and why. I think it’s fascinating how history sometimes repeats itself.
3. Movies. This is some kind of escapism, but there’s nothing I like more then going to see a movie in the theatres, alone or with friends. I also have the bad habit of watching movies instead of studying or doing something useful.
4. Music. Nothing better to soothe a heartbreak then some music. I’m kind of a loud person, but when it comes to what I really feel, deep down, I often find it hard to tell people what’s it like, also because I don’t like showing people what I’m really like. I often listen to a song and then think, why can’t I explain myself the way they can…
5. Books. Yet again, escapism. Hiding and searching in a world where I don’t really belong, in worlds where nobody really belongs, to be lonely amongst the lonely.

There’s lots more I like, and don’t like, but that will have to wait until next time. Right now, it’s time for me to sleep. Sometimes I have the feeling that it doesn’t matter how much I sleep, I’ll still never be fit, I’ll remain tired, and never be really awake. So, let’s see what it’s like today and tomorrow…

 Talk to all of you later.

Lots of Love, AnFie